One year ago today I sat in church with my mom for the very last time. Today was a very emotional worship service for me... to say the least. This weekend was the weekend my mom flew up last year to spend some time with us, to enjoy the fair with us, to see David off to kindergarten, and to say good-bye. I've been reminiscing all week about my experience at this time last year. Today in church though, I just had such a feeling of empathy for my mom's experience on this Sunday last year. She really wanted to go to church, although I had thought she wouldn't want to for several reasons. She had been so sick in the night, and she was so tired and weak. She couldn't stand for the singing, and when the worship team led us in "Amazing Grace," I sat down with my mom and held her hand as she wept. And I wept. And I'm weeping right now... Today I finally was able to wonder how what my mom must have felt as the words to the hymn and the workings in her heart affected her. The joy of what was to come, but the fear of the unknown, or even her life flashing before her- what were her feelings? She was so private about her faith. I am assured that she is experiencing that "Amazing Grace" without looking back. I feel so blessed to have had a connection with my mom through our faith, and to have been included in her closure this Sunday in 2007.
These are some memorable pictures of this weekend in 2007. I have enlarged each of these photos, and now have them hanging in our stairwell. I love seeing her smile, and recalling the warmth of her visit last year. We were honored to have her. I love you, Mom.
5 comments:
oh, so beautiful. What a Sunday for you and the fam. Love the pics, love hearing your heart. What a journey you had together and still her legacy of love and laughter continue :) So glad you had amazing times together to share and remember. Thanks for your words here. So good for me to think about my own life and the time I have to love on my family! Whew.
Love, Jen
Oh Sarah...and I'm crying too. I remember hugging her that Sunday and even where I was standing when we hugged. I kept thinking of her incredible strength to even be there. She was an amazing woman who raised a beautiful daughter I adore as friend. She has left a legacy in you. Thanks for sharing your heart.
Sarah... my tears are flowing. You have been on my heart this past week in regards to your Mom, now I know why. I would have hugged you extra tight on Sunday had I known that was the day she was here. I too remember where I was when I greeted her that Sunday. At the top of the stairs. Hugs to you, friend.
I started to cry looking at the pictures before I even read your post...then I really lost it. Thank you for sharing. I love you and am praying for you...and praising God for the work that He did in your Mom's heart and in the special relationship that you had with her.
Love,
Sally
Oh Sarah! My heart goes out to you!! and my tears did too! I send you my love! and lift you in my prayers!
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